feeling sad… need some distressing

current mood: close friends about to leave for overseas… reminded about the impermanence of physical relationships, the permanence of spiritual connection, and why there is a need to look forward to the afterlife where everyone good will be living forever

need some distressing… 

currently craving for: Dear Darla pizza of Yellow Cab

and some Jco Doughnuts



Poetic Diversions 2

Smile 2

by sweettring

Your smile

So careless

So carefree

Masks the

Thousand and


Things you


The thousand and

one things you

Don’t understand.

I am lost

Because I am

not sure

about the things


know about


how much

you care

to understand…

How I really

feel about you…

How much I love

you deep in my heart.

Undergraduate Memories

Photo: Palma Hall, arguably the most famous building in UP Diliman as it is where all students take many of their common freshmen courses for GE

Looking Back: UP Diliman

(In view of my undergraduate years, it is only fitting that this article is formatted like a paper)

One of my most favorite places on earth is UP Diliman. The ambience is simply unique, as unique as its intellectual culture that emphasizes critique and the harmonious co-existence of contrasting ideas.

As undergrad students, generations of teenagers have spent their significant life years being shaped by the culture of the campus as they:

1. struggle to pass numerous exams, often times given in the strenuous essay form that requires nights and nights of preparation and second-guessing of exam question topics

2. find their niche in the very vast array of student organizations, numbering 250 plus according to the UP Student Affairs, including orgs for sports, academics, volunteerism like Red Cross Youth, and interests like manga, Japanese culture and astronomy
( note: the idea of meeting new people may seem kind of exciting, and even romantic at first — but hey, chances are, one’s orgmates would be students who are as grade-concious as one is, so any romantic notion is almost surely bound to fail).

3. choose from a vast array of food and dining options: from fishballs casually eaten while hanging out by the Sunken Garden, to the very busy CASAA filled with noisy and haggard students hurrying up to eat before going to their next classes, and the romantic but quite-expensive-for-undergrads dining experience offered by Chocolate Kiss. Korean, Indian and other foreign fare also make the campus an unforgettable dining destination.

Why am I writing this piece? Because I would like to preserve my memories of undergraduate intellectual sojourns at the University. I was a member of two campus organizations: UP SMMART and UP Bread. I am proud of these two because they helped bring out the best in me.

Writing has made me want to come back, to visit the nooks of the campus where I have spent my teenage years trying to figure out major teenage issues like career paths and life philosophies.
Yes, I will come back. Hopefully, I’ll be able to write a post about a re-visit to the campus.

Growing Up in the 90’s: Home Along Da Riles and Autograph Books

Those who grew up in the 90s learned to  fill out autograph or slam books, years before Facebook profile pages. When some elementary school classmates were asked to fill out the question Who are your friends?, some would write TMTM  (short for Too Many To Mention), perhaps to be safe that no one who might get heartbroken gets left out of one’s Friends list on paper.

In 90s style autograph books, I would write Home Along Da Riles as my favorite TV show. The late comedy king Dolphy  played the lead role of Kevin Cosme as a widow who takes care of his five kids.

Home Along Da Riles also starred Claudine Baretto, Smokey Manaloto, Gio Alvarez and the Quizon brothers Boy2 and Vandolph as Kevin Cosme’s children. Nova Villa plays the role of Kevin’s sister-in-law who is totally deadset on getting Kevin to love him. She would often utter the line “Kevin, kailan tayo magpapakasal?” The cast had a unique chemistry playing a big family living near the train tracks that the viewer is bound to forget the travails of the life of the working class as epitomized by the character of Kevin, who works as a messenger in a recruitment agency. What makes the movie such a family classic is that every episode concludes with clear resolutions where everyone in the family or the community, the jobless tambays SunogBaga gang included, end up helping each other out or eating happily together. Moral lessons are also imparted by Kevin to his children, a part a lot of today’s TV writers and producers could probably find unconventional given the track of popular entertainment nowadays.

Everytime a train would pass the tracks beside the Cosme family house, the house would shake and Dolphy would be seen hanging on to whatever post he could grasp, creating a hilarious scene transition that ends with objects flying in the most unlikely of places.

Cita Astals had fresh vibe as the busy but congenial boss in the recruitment agency where Kevin works as messenger, and Bernardo Bernardo played well the part of a quite-tough-to-please office superior who is also a concerned colleague, way before gay identity in film and fiction was as widely problematized and offered its ideals as today. I remember one particularly special end scene wherein Kevin Cosme’s colleagues at work visited him at his house during a family gathering. Everyone who wanted to share in the celebration potluck style brought ice cream – so there was nothing else left to eat for the hosts and guests. Along comes Steve, the character played by Bernardo Bernardo, proudly declaring that he brought cake. Then they learned that it was ice cream cake. It was a classic Home Along Da Riles episode ending, spelling good old fun and exuding the warmth of Filipino connectivity before texting, social networking and Fil- American Idols’ love-your-own-color ethos enthralled us all.